Look up, child.

Hi, friend. How’s your soul? Does it feel heavy? I know mine does. 
I am so deeply burdened for my city and nation right now. 
Does it all feel like too much to you, too? 

I have spent so much time looking around at what’s happening, assaulted on all sides from the groaning of our broken world. Constantly looking left, right, left again.
Pandemic, loss, death. 
Instability. Uncertainty.
Racial division, protests, riots.
And repeat. 

A news ticker streams relentlessly in my mind, regurgitating bits and pieces of headlines, distracting me throughout my day (and night…anyone else?) So much time spent looking around that I realize I’ve almost entirely forgotten how to look UP. 

Yes, UP. 

In the midst of this dark time, we are desperately searching for hope at ground-level, feeling around for it blindly and coming up completely empty-handed. But this should not surprise us. Why? It’s simple. Real hope isn’t found here. It doesn’t originate here. 

Hope is a heavenly entity. 

Listen closely: This is not some weak Christian platitude. No, this hope I’m talking about is living Hope. It’s real and it’s powerful. That’s because Hope is a Person. Jesus.

Earthly hope is crossed fingers at best, but heavenly Hope is guaranteed to not let you down.


So if you find yourself on your hands and knees, fumbling around in the dark, feeling for answers and remaining continually discouraged, I’d tell you you’re actually closer to hope than you might think. Stay on your knees – keep that posture – but lift your chin and direct your gaze heavenward. 

It’s time to quit searching horizontally for what can only be found vertically. 

Here is some balm for your soul. Read these next paragraphs with purpose (maybe slowly or aloud or multiple times) so they don’t just pass through your lips but they also infiltrate your heart.

I lift my eyes to the hills. Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth (Psalm 121:1-2). Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take up my yoke and learn from me, because I am lowly and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light (Matthew 11:28-30).

Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.  Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us (Romans 5:1-5)

According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor (1 Peter 1:3-7)

*emphasis mine

Because “he turns his ear to listen, I will call on him as long as I live” (Psalm 116:2). Kneel in humble prayer and agree with the Spirit. Don’t know what to pray? Ask him to direct your paths and use you as a vessel of Light. Clenched, anxious fists? Open them in surrender. Open the pages of your Bible and seek him. Find the scriptures written above, highlight them, ask God to help you believe them. When we look to him, (can you believe we even get to look to him?), he will not look away

When we remove our gaze from this world and place it on Jesus, and an exchange takes place.
Sorrow for joy.
Mourning to dancing.
Trials to triumph.
Darkness for light.
Burdens for relief.
Chaos for calm.
When your burden is being carried by Jesus instead of you, you’re freed up to move toward taking back ground for the kingdom of God.

Can you see it now? The more we behold him, the more we are made into His likeness, and the more his Light permeates the heavy darkness we find ourselves in. And the best part? His Light, his glory, is transformative. Meaning, it has the power to bring about actual change in people.

He transforms. He restores. He makes all things right and beautiful again.

He is able. And in turn, he enables us.

So, like the song says, look up, child. Lock eyes with the Savior. Let your life be a holy broadcast of Living Hope. Our world needs it.

Thankful.

Writing has had to take a bit of a backseat lately, for various reasons, but today it feels so good to get my hands on this keyboard of mine because I have something sweet and special to share.

 

I cannot believe I get to do this again.

This….

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Carry a baby. Assist in another miracle. And become a mama all over again. 

Thankful.

It feels too special. Too heavy and light all at the same time. Too full and too happy and too much. 

Entering motherhood two and a half years ago thrust me into the wildest adventure of my life. It also plunged me into conversations, experiences, relationships, and issues I never even knew existed before. My eyes have been opened to so much, and among that, especially a greater understanding and gratitude surrounding this space of bringing babies into the world. I know it doesn’t always come easy, or when or how we hope it will. Have I mentioned how thankful I am? 

I notice I’m worrying less this go-around, and praying more. Praying over absolutely everything – mostly my heart, my attitude, my spirit…but also things like who will be clocked in at the hospital when it’s delivery time. 

I find myself craving less control, more surrender. And what I really want is for that essence to diffuse beyond these next six or seven months, beyond the day this baby enters the world, and settle deep into my everyday life as I walk through motherhood. Another prayer to add to the list. 

So here I sit, smiling from the inside out, gratefully surrendered to whatever He has in store. Thank you, thank you, Lord.  

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my journaling Bible + my first G I V E A W A Y !

Back in January I received my first journaling Bible for my birthday from my sweet friend Shelby. I fell in love immediately.

I have since learned that Bible journaling is a whole thing — who knew? You can use the margins for basic written notes, or you can get super creative with illustrations and pretty script inspired by what you’ve studied. It’s a new way to dive into truths you come across, and really commit them to memory. 

I definitely haven’t used my new Bible to it’s full potential yet, but I’m excited to see those margins fill up over the years.

And can you believe how pretty that outer cover is?? Just picture like 16 heart eye emojis here. 

 



I have two other Bibles that I’ve been using recently: the NIV Women’s Bible and the Beautiful Word Bible. 

The NIV Women’s Bible features devotions throughout from women like Shauna Niequist, a favorite author of mine. And since I love words, I’m all about getting extra insight as I read certain passages. This makes a great study Bible for digging a little deeper. 


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